Ben Pettit

If Jesus is who he said he is and I’m pursuing who I’m suppose to be, would I really be stuck where I am right now? I’m not really questioning myself too aggressively, I’m more questioning the process. How fast does the Lord work?

I think I understand now that he works in whatever speed he chooses. I don’t think the Lord works in a cause and effect type relationship. I can’t do anything for him to love me any more and I can’t do anything for Him to love me any less. I think that that in itself is both comforting and frightening.

Rodney and I went to the VA hospital here in Anderson today. I played for a man suffering from prostate cancer. He served our country through the worse of times, through war, through hell on earth, and prostate cancer kills him. It just doesn’t seem fair.

See here’s the thing, I believe the Lord is the Lord of Lords, King of Kings, and Almighty over all. In that is he a healer? Does he heal? Yes. But on the whole, he does not heal those suffering from very serious conditions. Did we not pray hard enough for Hanna Sobeski, the Dorman High School student who passed so tragically of cancer. Did we not have enough faith?

I’m not sure that is it at all. I believe the Lord chooses who to heal, who to bless, who to save. Yeah I said it, I think there are people in this world who will never experience the Love of the Father. They will never be saved because he hasn’t choose them to be saved. I use to think so the opposite, I’ve come to this conclusion that I am literally in control of very little.

I need you Jesus, come to my Rescue, tell me where else can I go? There is no other name by which I am saved, capture me with grace…

I will follow you…