Ben Pettit

The most challenging thing I have ever done is happening at 7:10 tonight. I am doing the devotion for Awana’s at Westside to about 40-60 children. I’m not sure how to effectively get on the level of a child. It’s been SO long since I have been one, I kind of forget what it’s like. I can’t go super deep, descripitive or even logicial. So I am left with?

No idea yet…

When I think about the love of the Lord it absolutely floors me. How much he loves me. How much I don’t deserve his love. I mess up so much all the time. Yet his love pours all over me. It pours in the form of his blood. He bore so much pain, so much hurt, he suffered so much. For me.

Father I don’t understand why you gave yourself for me. You didn’t just die but you suffered so long and hard. You hung there for me, you hung there in agony to save me. Lord forgive me when I fall short of your glory. God I cry out for your mercy. Create a clean heart in me. Lord I need your love dwelling in me. Let me take the passion I have and dwell it on things of your heart.

So often I am guilty of speaking and not listening. I am a type A personality. I run and go go go until I colapse. When I am in go mode, watch out. It is possible that even you the reader have been run over emotionally or physically by me. Honestly I didn’t mean anything by it, I’m figuring out that is how I am wired.

See, the thing is, I see a problem, and I don’t say “lets implement a plan that will change this in 3 to 6 months.” I say “how can we change this, this week?”

My goal for the next week is to listen. To encourage others before seeking for encouragement. Help me by praying for this.

What’s your goal this week?

So what, you screwed up, just like you knew you probably would. I’m hear to tell you will screw up again. You will have to fight to break free. You are a sheep and you have gone astray. You have to hear the masters voice, the shepherd, the King, or you will never break free from your bondage. You have to follow that voice. You can pray a prayer, but it’s really important what you do after you have prayed it.